ADHD? O.K.

Good morning. Afternoon? Is it 11 already? Have I wasted half my day?
But that’s okay, I slept at 5am last night baking macarons. In 4 different flavors! I had to use up the egg whites leftover trying to recreate a 100 year old recipe for a semolina pound cake (sugee). I will share the recipe once I get it right. Secret recipes are so 1900s. I don’t dare to cut it — what if i did it wrong? Would I have wasted my time? But at least now I know how to make macarons! In 4 different flavors!

Facebook. Instagram. Twitter.

Facebook. Facebook. Facebook.

Emails.

Is it 11:15?! What a waste of my life. What should I have for breakfast? I had eggs on Kalles yesterday and I liked it. But I’m not practicing cooking. What if I forget how to cook? But I am craving Kalles. What if I made a pasta instead? What time should I have dinner? Should I skip lunch since I woke up late? But won’t that make me get too hungry? What if i overeat dinner? Is pasta bad for you? I wish I had wine to pair with it. What pairs with fish and meat? I should learn more about wine. Am I getting old?

I should upload my cooking video. The lighting is weird though maybe I should process it further. Am I overthinking this? I need to trust myself more. Has Adobe had an update? Maybe it’s okay if I look purple. How did that happen though. Saturation? How do I edit a single hue? I wonder how much esteem has been rebuilt this year. Therapy has been so expensive. I wonder how my therapist is doing. Is it snowing where she is? I hope she has Uniqlo — I should email her about heat-tech. Which email do I use to contact her again?

11:30 OKAY GET OUT OF BED.

Coffee. What coffee should I have today? If I have two blue ones will it be safe? Or should I mix it with a purple capsule. I love Nespresso. What an invention. I wish I had a hardcore coffee machine. Where is the grinder? I FORGOT TO BUY THE BEANS FROM SINGAPORE. Every damn time. Maybe I’ll make butter coffee today. But I need butter to use up the stale bread from yesterday and make pudding.

I need to check my ClassPass account. I haven’t used it in awhile. Should I cancel it for this month? I have so many things. But exercise is good. Exercise is important. Maybe I should get a hula hoop and a new mat for home.

I should cut the sugee today. What if it turned out terrible? Ugh. I hope the macarons aged well. Should I use oat milk today? I decided to mix my capsules will it dilute the taste too much? At least it’s not almond milk. Jeez. That milk takes up space. Should I bake a pie today? I wonder how long the pudding will take.

11:40 Mmm coffee.

11:50 What should I have for breakfast? But it’s lunchtime. Should I make brunch? What’s in the fridge? Today is a work day. Should I take a Ritalin?

12:00 Oh no I took a Ritalin and I’m drinking my coffee. Will my brain combust? What if I get a heart attack with no one is home? I should really finish up my MedTech app. I HAVE A CALL AT 1PM. Thank god I remembered.

Where are my keys?
Where is my phone?

WHERE. ARE. MY. KEYS.
WHERE. IS. MY. PHONE.

They were here a second ago I SWEAR I JUST SAW THEM.

12:20 Time to check all the emails!

Emails are easy. They are repetitive and I usually find the task insurmountable but they seem okay today.

Read. Reply. Star. Categorize. Reply. Spam. Read. Reply.

I found my phone!

KEYS!

I should go check the mail and get back to my emails.

Wow. Emails are great. Let me check my tasks for the day and tackle them one by one.

Easy.

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